Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Recently, I experienced a great and profound disappointment in my life. Boo-hoo. Woe is me. Being a human being, I’m not exactly a newbie in the field of disappointment.
This particular one, it hurt me so much, I felt it down deep in my soul. When your soul hurts, it’s serious business.
Without going into great detail, I will say, I’d lost my trust in man, and in all humankind. I'd forgotten to Trust Only in God, as a rule. Man is full of bones, damaged hearts and bullshit parts, and thus, man is bound to bullshit you, and disappoint you, and lie to you, and smile in your face and stab you in the back with such cunning and swift precision, you won’t even see the blade coming.
When someone does this to you, whether they be a man or a woman, it’s A Motherfucker’s Move.
In life, we need to be aware of the Motherfuckers. They are everywhere, yo! You can’t and you won’t always spot them right away. Why? Because Motherfuckers are shape-shifters, damn it! Act like you know! They can wear the face of a friend or your boss, your family, or even your lover. What makes them Motherfuckers is that they won’t really care enough about you to support you when you’re down, or have your back when that back is against the wall. When you’re hurt, when you’re struggling, when you’re trying to keep your head above water, that’s when the Motherfuckers will show you their True Face.
That’s when a Motherfucker will rise from the darkened dens of their wretched Motherfucked-ness.
So, upon the Great Disappointment in my life, caused by another kind of Motherfucker entirely, I sought and needed friendship, instead of unappreciated stress. I sought understanding, instead of madness. I sought empathy, instead of selfishness. And I sought love from those who claimed to love me.
When you love someone, if they require space, you give them space.
When you love someone, if they ask for peace, you give them peace.
When you love someone, and they need to be left alone… you grant them their alone time.
But a Motherfucker won’t care about any of that shit. Why?
Because, a Motherfucker has his or her own agenda.
A Motherfucker will always make demands upon you.
A Motherfucker will make erroneous accusations about you.
A Motherfucker will not give a shit about you or your feelings.
A Motherfucker will always find some new shit to bitch about.
A Motherfucker will say some shit with no other objective than to Piss. You. Off.
And yes, a Motherfucker is chronically insecure.
A Motherfucker will secretly smile at your misfortune.
A Motherfucker is a stranger to the word "loyalty."
A Motherfucker doesn’t care if there’s a death in your family.
A Motherfucker will only crave more attention.
A Motherfucker will drain you of your last ounce of energy.
And then that Motherfucker will still ask for more.
A Motherfucker can’t stand it when you tell them NO!
A Motherfucker truly believes they are the planet’s most important person.
And yet, that same Motherfucker needs constant emotional reinforcement.
A Motherfucker will try to make you doubt your own abilities.
A Motherfucker is truly a miserable human being.
But I want to give all The Real Motherfuckers their rightful due.
You Motherfuckers inspire me to be the best that I can be.
You Motherfuckers give me new confidence in myself.
You Motherfuckers make me realize the hero within me.
You Motherfuckers make something in me rise higher.
You Motherfuckers stoke my creativity’s fire.
You Motherfuckers are soooooo damn necessary.
You Motherfuckers make me stronger than I ever knew I could be.
You Motherfuckers force me to make a LIAR out of you.
So, thank you, Motherfuckers.
Even if you don’t know you’re a Motherfucker... I know it now.
I hope... No. I'm sure others recognize your wretched Motherfucked-ness, too.
Note: This is a repost, the remix, the encore... which is just as necessary as it was before.